flora's concerns

When I read Flora's email, it was clear that she was concerned for me.  She responded to me in reaction to how I must look--to how I have always looked-- a girl without a mother, without what a mother brings.


She spoke of grief work and therapy and I hadn't even shared a glimmer of my story.  If she only knew the details of my life, perhaps she would be very worried.  But as much as I wanted someone to care for me, fuss over me even, I did not need this kind of concern.  I came to this search on my own two feet.  And would walk away from it the same way if needed.


Dear Flora,


Have a wonderful trip.  I will look forward to hearing from you when you return if you wish to write.  I'll certainly share my story with you if you are interested.  You sound like a wonderful mother and grandmother--very accepting, considerate and thoughtful.  Those in your life are blessed to have you.


Placing this ad forces me to address the question you ask: what am I looking for?  A connection with a woman who can see me as a daughter figure in her life.  What will that look like?  I honestly don't know.  I am not in a place of desperation, more just a longing to see what is possible.


Take care and thank you for your letters.


fondly,
Michelle