independent mother 5

My friend Kris arrived from LA today.  She told me this evening that she's never seen me more content, that motherhood has really settled me.  Polly had said something similar to me yesterday, that she's never heard me sound so good.  With this crazy week, it is comforting that what my friends notice about me is a calm, confident mother.  Janet is the perfect all natural anti-anxiety drug for new mothers.  And it seems that her half-life is long; I feel her in me still--reassuring me.  And while I don't exactly feel calm or confident, what I have discovered about myself this week is that what I feel most despite the chaos around me is joy.  I love evolving as a mother.